I often use the words "I trust God," but if I did, if I truly did, I wouldn't be trying to control every little thing in my life.  I wouldn't be as fearful as I am...  I pray and get answers, then question whether those answers were the ones I wanted or needed.  I speculate.  I contemplate.  But I don't trust.  Not fully.  If I did I'd be praying  instead of blogging to relieve this fear of the future that has wrapped itself around my heart.  

Even those of us firm in our faith have a moment where we are simply at a loss...

The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in Him, and He helps me!  Psalm 28:7